Depression feels a bit like...

...waking up every morning, and the first thing you think is fuck and the second is omg this day is gonna be awwwwful i just dont wanna and things continue like that in your mind, and you just can't seem to shift it.

Giving depression a huge kick up the arse happens a little later in the day when you make an effort to find things to balance that feeling out. Things that made me giggle/smile/squeak with happiness today have so far been:

• listening to JJJ being silly buggers and playing with ukeleles (have I spelled that incorrectly???) this morning on the way to work
• getting a cup of coffee brought to me while in the shower (love you)
• swallowing my fear and getting all assertive and proactive at work
• finding unguarded lindt chocolates in the tea room this morning (haha! fair game if they're left in a bowl where everyone can find them!)

And that was just this morning. I now have a belly full of lunch and Pessimism has moved his skinny ugly arse over... Optimism just parked her ample butt down, and kept on scooting over until he fell off the end of the bench. Yay!

Comments

[Adie]

That is most definitely the most awesome analogy I've ever heard. + vs - outlooks, as demonstrated by arses and the sex of their owners. :D

[Monica]

hehe i think of Optimism as being a lush, large woman, generous and loving, a lot like the Emperess card from the tarot. Pessimism looks alot like the original severus snape (not alan rickman, the "real" snape from the books, thin, nasty, extra greasy). *grin*